Dangerously close...
Isn’t it something when we are so passionate about something that it makes us cry at the thought of it? I have a few things like that stored deep in my heart.
I love to worship. I love to write. I love to read the Word. Chances are if you and I were to sit and chat for any length of time about any of those subjects, tears would just spring to my eyes. They are the deep things in my heart.
God made me that way. He set those things up in my heart before I was born, to bring me life and abundance in Him. The things that He desires for us - the abundant life - the promised land that is here and now - must be related to these deep things. That is why I cry. It is the unbelief (to some degree) that springs up. It is the voice of the evil one who wants me to believe that those things are never going to come to pass. I am just not good enough (well, certainly with the Holy Spirit I am not), or talented enough... Or so many other things. It is why it is hard to share in groups of people - for fear of sounding foolish or prideful.
But, those of you who really know me, know that I am more and more about keeping it real, and less and less about keeping these things to myself. God created me for a purpose. He created me to unashamedly live for Him - in whatever way He chooses.
My book has 3 half-chapters left. That is simply surreal. First of all that I am actually so close to being finished. Secondly, that I am a mere 5 to 6 hours away from needing to figure out about publishing. And thirdly, that the cover (hand drawn by a dear friend) is perfectly perfect - and already drawn. I think I always knew it would really be done, but I guess it has just been “Wait” for so long.
This week, I anticipate that my heart will be stirred up in many ways. I have found some bitterness that lies within my heart. That is a bummer. I hate it when I think that I have dealt with something that I have not fully dealt with. Yuck. But, I am excited to say that God was gracious enough to shed His light on it, and I am going to choose to be willing to let Him heal my broken heart. It will probably include being very transparent in an awkward situation, but that is okay. God is worth it. He is always worthy of anything I can do to bring Him glory.
Tonight, I want to encourage you to write down the deep things in your heart. You don’t have to share them with anyone. But, if you want to believe that God has stirred something within you for a purpose, you ought to tell someone you can trust. You could even share it with me anonymously. I love dreams. God is truly the giver of our passions. But, the enemy would love to keep us in the place that halts any progression towards the things God has set deep within. Whatever that thing is that stirs your heart up for God - write it down and seek Him for what He wants from you in it right now. Maybe it is time to pray. Maybe it is time to share it with someone, or a close group of people. If you have not read it, I highly encourage you to read “Waking the Dead”, by John Eldridge. Talk about reminding us of the importance of seeking out the things of the heart!! Whew - it is a great read and a good thing for those of us who are parched in this sun-scorched land.
Now, off to finish the book - or make a good run at it. Sleep well, friends. Dream big. Leaving your hands wide open for the Lord to give and take away...
Isn’t it something when we are so passionate about something that it makes us cry at the thought of it? I have a few things like that stored deep in my heart.
I love to worship. I love to write. I love to read the Word. Chances are if you and I were to sit and chat for any length of time about any of those subjects, tears would just spring to my eyes. They are the deep things in my heart.
God made me that way. He set those things up in my heart before I was born, to bring me life and abundance in Him. The things that He desires for us - the abundant life - the promised land that is here and now - must be related to these deep things. That is why I cry. It is the unbelief (to some degree) that springs up. It is the voice of the evil one who wants me to believe that those things are never going to come to pass. I am just not good enough (well, certainly with the Holy Spirit I am not), or talented enough... Or so many other things. It is why it is hard to share in groups of people - for fear of sounding foolish or prideful.
But, those of you who really know me, know that I am more and more about keeping it real, and less and less about keeping these things to myself. God created me for a purpose. He created me to unashamedly live for Him - in whatever way He chooses.
My book has 3 half-chapters left. That is simply surreal. First of all that I am actually so close to being finished. Secondly, that I am a mere 5 to 6 hours away from needing to figure out about publishing. And thirdly, that the cover (hand drawn by a dear friend) is perfectly perfect - and already drawn. I think I always knew it would really be done, but I guess it has just been “Wait” for so long.
This week, I anticipate that my heart will be stirred up in many ways. I have found some bitterness that lies within my heart. That is a bummer. I hate it when I think that I have dealt with something that I have not fully dealt with. Yuck. But, I am excited to say that God was gracious enough to shed His light on it, and I am going to choose to be willing to let Him heal my broken heart. It will probably include being very transparent in an awkward situation, but that is okay. God is worth it. He is always worthy of anything I can do to bring Him glory.
Tonight, I want to encourage you to write down the deep things in your heart. You don’t have to share them with anyone. But, if you want to believe that God has stirred something within you for a purpose, you ought to tell someone you can trust. You could even share it with me anonymously. I love dreams. God is truly the giver of our passions. But, the enemy would love to keep us in the place that halts any progression towards the things God has set deep within. Whatever that thing is that stirs your heart up for God - write it down and seek Him for what He wants from you in it right now. Maybe it is time to pray. Maybe it is time to share it with someone, or a close group of people. If you have not read it, I highly encourage you to read “Waking the Dead”, by John Eldridge. Talk about reminding us of the importance of seeking out the things of the heart!! Whew - it is a great read and a good thing for those of us who are parched in this sun-scorched land.
Now, off to finish the book - or make a good run at it. Sleep well, friends. Dream big. Leaving your hands wide open for the Lord to give and take away...
