Listen to this, my friends...

"As for God, His way is perfect; the Word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in Him. For who is God beside the Lord? And who is the Rock except our God? It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; He enables me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. You give me your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me; you stoop down to make me great. You broaden the path beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn." Psalm 18:30-36

This is who my God is. Isn't it beautiful? Right now the daycare is under scrutiny from the State. There is a lot involved. They have crossed many lines, and are making life miserable for my sweet friends that are trying to work and trying to make the center great. It is a difficult time at best. It is hard to describe the pain that is in my heart over it. The business belongs to the Lord. It is His. What grieves me, is the thought that we may not be running it the way that He wants. But, as I seek Him, as I ask Him, I find that He doesn't find me lacking. I am not saying that I am perfect, just that He is clear with me that I am not supposed to jump in and "save the day" by working all day every day. But, because He is who He is... He constantly reminds me who I am. I am the beloved of the Lord. I have His right hand sustaining me. I am being trained for battle. And He has the victory already. These are assurances that I have in my heart. I am listening to a song right now that is the cry of my heart... Oh Jesus be the fire inside of me... Listen to these words...

You won’t relent until you have it all
My heart is yours
You won’t relent until you have it all
My heart is yours

Come be the fire inside of me
Come be the flame inside my heart
Come be the fire inside of me
Until you and I are one

Oh, Lord that is all I desire. I desire that you be the fire. You be the flame. Set my heart in your presence to where I literally desire nothing of the earth... only you Lord. My heart is ruined I tell you and I never felt more confident. He is the only thing worth living for. The only thing. I know that in and of itself can be offensive to you. What? You have four beautiful children and a wonderful husband. Yes, I do. I am the most blessed lady in the world! But, you must understand that if I live, it is for Christ alone, and to die is gain(Philippians 1:21). My life must become nothing to me, because then and only then will I gain everything! ("For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it." Luke 9:24-25)What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self?) (Acts 20:24, Psalm 39:5) Some might think that is against Biblical standards... "you should love your family more than anything in the world".... You should want to live for them.... no, I want to live to teach them who the Lord is...anything more than that is idolatry. I love them with a love that I cannot describe... but I won't be here forever. The only One that will be with them forever is Christ... that is it! Our God will sustain them when I cannot. The only worth they will have in the years to come is the worth that they have in Christ. Times are changing, that is sure. But, we must take hold of that which cannot be taken from us!