There is so much going on - I don't even know where to begin. We met Christian's (prospective) adoptive family today. They are wonderful. They are sweet and kind and fun to hang out with. If we lived in the same town we would be great friends. I mean, we will be friends anyway, but I think we could be really close friends. That is sweet to know. I have a great peace in my heart about what all will follow. I know that God's plan is best, and I know He has a great plan for this little boy. He is sweet and precious - and very loved.
Please pray for my Candice. She is supposed to come and sign the papers tomorrow - voluntary relinquishment of Christian. Whew. That is just so hard for me. I am not going to like being there for that. I mean, I wouldn't miss it because I want to be there for her... but I am going to hate what that means. I am going to hate watching her cry and knowing that she is just so confused and saddened by her own choices. I feel like if she would just plug into a good church family and stay away from old friends, she would be so much better off. She could heal and have such a better life, but I have no doubt that Christian will have a much better life if he is further away from his birthfather. Please pray for her that she would really lean into God during all of this. Pray that I would have words and a comforting presence to her. I sure love her.
The house situation has been something else! We never know what's next. But, we do know that God knows where we will be living and just how that will look. He is so amazing. His love is complete and it doesn't fall short of what we need at any given time. Soon enough we will be moved (again) and soon enough we will have our family situated in a more permanent (I think) residence. There is a lot we can learn though, about living in a temporary home. If you don't buckle in too deep, it isn't terribly hard to let go. If you don't ever consider it as "yours" it isn't nearly as hard to grasp it with loose fingers. So, my dream would be that we are moved into our new house before July 1st and that we will not take for granted the house that we have. I also am praying that we will be wise with what we keep, what we sell, and what we give away. It all belongs to the Lord, and I am ready to not be stingy. I want to give freely and love the Giver way more than the gifts.
Speaking of gifts! It has been such a blessing and a gift to be singing on the praise team at church. Oh my heart has missed this a lot! I am getting the opportunity to sing about 3 weekends a month at church. It is so great. It is just so great! I am truly blessed by the timing of this precious gift from the Lord.
Well, that precious little boy is letting me know it is time for his bottle. So, I will go for now, but I wanted you to know how to pray for us. It has been a crazy month, and I suspect the next two months will be a little more of the same. God is faithful - and He will provide everything we need to get through all of these times. What a sweet Savior we have! What a good God!
